Love letters

In a time where people just slide into your DM, love letters are something kids have only seen in old movies their parents and grandparents like watching. They will never know the anxiety you feel when you (anonymously) send a letter to your crush. The process of writing it by hand in your best handwriting, or letting your best friend write it because she had pretty penmanship, asking another friend to slip it into his bag or history book and waiting to see if he'd act differently after he's read it is something you can't explain to kids who have never lived without internet and social media.

Did you ever get a love letter or a love note? How did it make you feel? I remember getting a cute card on Valentine's day once. I was in Middle school. Before you say well that's normal ... getting a card on Valentine's day in middle school, to me it wasn't. I attended an all girls Catholic middle school. Any kind of showing of affection towards boys or the other way around was not high on the schools list of  things they wanted from their students. So finding a Valentine's day card between 3rd and 4th period on your desk is so unexpected. I guess he asked a friend of a friend of a friends sister to place it there, because I don't see any other way it could have gotten there since boys didn't attend our school, nor could they enter the premises. I felt so embarrassed and my classmates teased me for weeks, but I didn't care ... a boy liked me. Till this day I don't know who send it to me and I don't remember what it said, but I do remember how it made me feel.

I had never written a love letter or a love note til I was late in my 20's. I had a few relationships, but they just evolved and were not the love letter kind, Maybe that's why they didn't last (Hmm I need to reevaluate some things). I am also very shy around guys I like, I never know how to "properly" act, I say stupid things and never know how to tell them I like them. In this digital age we live in we know so much about people , yet we don't really know them. We share so much about our lives with everyone through social media and talk about a million things, but not always about the things that matter. So I met this guy on Facebook through friends. Turns out we worked very close to each other and we had messengers from both our companies delivering mail to us every day. In my mind I'm a hopeless romantic, my mom says I watch too many Hallmark movies, but hey ... why not? So after he and I went out to lunch a few times, I decided to express my feelings towards him. Telling him straight to his face was no option. I never know what to say, I get nervous and would probably blurt out something really stupid and ruin everything. So I decided to send him a love note. I wrote "One kiss for every moment I thought of you today" on a note, I put on lipstick, made 100 kisses on copy paper, cut them out, put them in an envelope and added glitter to it. In my mind it was the sweetest most romantic thing ever. I wrote his name on the envelope, and put "IMPORTANT!!!" in red on the top left corner.I gave it to the messenger with the strict instruction to give it to him personally and not to his assistant. The messenger didn't find it suspicious, because we send these kinds of envelopes every day between our companies. Now I just had to wait for his reaction at our lunch date. The hours were the longest hours ever. What I didn't know is that he had a meeting that morning. The messenger thought this letter was important to his meeting, so he brought it up to him. He is the kind if guy that opens envelopes upside down, so in the middle of an important meeting he opened the envelope with kisses and glitters and it all fell  down on the table in front of his boss and his colleagues. Needless to say that he was very embarrassed. He still thought it was sweet, but since he didn't have the same type of feelings for me we just stayed friends. Or maybe the embarrassment of the letter scared him off ...